Moving Right Along!

As some of you may know, I recently moved to Denver to pursue my writing. Upon my arrival, I started a new blog entitled: Success in the City! The purpose of which was to provide motivation for anyone struggling with a drastic life change or embarking on a path to reconnect with themselves. Originally I wanted to keep that journey separate from the writing of Insane Roots, but I realize now that it is impossible to have one without the other.

Therefore, I will no longer be posting updates to Success in the City. Instead, I will be channeling all my energy in keeping up to date with Insane Roots and Random Thoughts from Insane Roots (my poetry blog).

Thank you all for your support on this blog and the others. I look forward to having more time to connect with all of you and I am excited to read all of the wonderful pieces you have to share!

Blogging 101 (Day 4) – Identify your Audience

Today’s assignment for blogging 101 is to publish a post you’d like your ideal audience member to read. Today of all days, this could not be a harder assignment. I ended yesterday in a funk with the hopes that I would wake up today feeling better. Unfortunately, I feel worse. No particular reason per say, just not feeling like my normal upbeat self. On a day when I don’t much feel like having an audience, I spent most of day procrastinating. Then it occurred to me, that is my audience; anyone who may be feeling the way I am feeling, who needs a reminder that they are not alone and it will all be okay.

When it comes down to it,  The way I am feeling today is exactly the reason I started blogging in the first place. In the beginning it was just an outlet for me, but it has become an almost daily psychological ritual. In analyzing the root of the emotions that I have been experiencing, I think it all boils down to a feeling of loneliness. Staring over in a new city is lonely and as much as we try to rise above it, there will still be days when our emotions take over and we begin to throw ourselves a pity party.

As I fought back tears for the 3rd time this afternoon, I left my desk and went to the bathroom for a good cry, but by the time I made it there no tears would fall. Instead I decided to step outside for some fresh air and gave myself a subconscious pep talk! I reminded myself of all that I have to be thankful for and that these feelings of inadequacy and loneliness will pass. It is normal to feel down sometimes and it is okay to cry, but no good will come from wallowing in self-pity. As hard as it is you need to find a way to shake it off and move forward.

If my writing helps one person to do this, I will have reached my ideal audience member.

As Scarlet Ohara would say, “Tomorrow is another day!”

Thanks for stopping by 🙂

Blogging 101: Getting Involved!

Today’s assignment (#3) for Blogging 101 is to explore and connect with the blogging community. This is the perfect assignment for me!

Those who are near and dear to me know that I am a hard nut to crack! I tend to keep people at a distance until I am confident in their good intentions. Someone once referred to me as jaded. Although I wouldn’t go so far as to agree with that, but stand-offish yes I am! I am shy by nature, but ask any of my close friends and they will tell you that once I feel comfortable with you the shyness completely fades away and the kooky comes out!

Anyone who has read my blog, Insane Roots, probably has a pretty good idea as to why I have such a tough exterior. The uncertainty and abandonment I experience in my early childhood has made me leery of new relationships. This is not very beneficial when you have just moved to a new city and are trying to promote an upcoming book. I fear I will turn in to a hermit if I don’t get myself out there, so I am trying to change this with every passing day.

With that having been said, I am off to explore the blogging community!

Hello fellow bloggers! I look forward to learning about you and reading your posts!

Blogging 101: Reevaluating Who I am and Why I’m Here

As many of you know, this is not my first blog. I have been blogging on WordPress for about a year. The first blog I started was Insaneroots and it was more of a brainstorming technique in preparation for a memoir I was working on and an outlet of expression from the emotional turmoil in my life. My goal at that time was to take a step towards sharing my story and my writing to the world. I never in a million years thought that it would become the gateway to getting published, but here I am one year later with a manuscript in the works and a signed publishing contract! It has been my dream to publish my memoir and a goal I honestly never expected to achieve. Although it will be fantastic if I end up selling a ton of copies, I will be satisfied enough simply to see it on the shelves. It is amazing how one small achievement can change your entire perspective on life!

To give you an idea of how I began blogging, here is an excerpt from my original post to this blog:

“I had been living in Madison, Wisconsin, fairly content, but feeling there was something more out there for me. I didn’t know what that was, but I knew I needed to figure it out before it was too late. I was working for a family owned company, making good money. I was surrounded by friends and family that I hold very dear to my heart, but I still felt lost. Maybe not lost as much as disappointed. There were many nights when I would come home from work (or drinks after work) to my one bedroom apartment (and my cats) and think to myself…what now? I wasn’t satisfied. I tried picking up my various hobbies, such as painting, scrap-booking, and photography, but I never felt inspired to continue any of the projects I started. I had taken great joy in these outlets before, so why not now? What had changed?

I pulled out one of my many scrapbooks from years past and as I flipped through it, I realized what had changed…I did. As I looked through the collections of memories, I barely recognized this version of me and my life in the pages. I used to have such a love for life. I was determined, optimistic, creative, ambitious, healthy…all things I no longer attributed to myself. An overwhelming sadness came over me and for a moment, I just sat there staring off in to space, trying to figure out how all this had happened and what I could do to fix it. Something needed to change.

I went on this way for months; feeling defeated and overwhelmed by the notion of needing to reconnect with myself, but having no idea of how to do that. I resorted to a method of expression I had used in my early adulthood to cope with these emotional barriers; writing. Off and on through out my life, I had been working on a memoir recounting my life growing up with a con-artist for a mother and an unidentified father. Many had told me that my story was interesting and inspiring, so I decided to start trying to piece it all together.

I did not realize it then, but the sheer act of writing the blog was exactly what I needed to do to get the ball rolling in finding that “something more” I was looking for. Writing the blog forced me to revisit some of the most challenging struggles in my early childhood and most importantly to work through the emotions surrounding these events. I wrote several of the posts through tears, but after I was finished, I felt better. It was like a therapy session for me each time I logged in. I guess I did end up using that Psychology degree after all…on myself!”

And thus began my blogging ritual!

Now, with the book deal in the works, I had to find something else to blog about and I didn’t have much inspiration until I decided to make a drastic life change and move half way across the country. When I could no longer diminish the urge to write, I started this blog; Success in the City Blog!

Unfortunately, I have had trouble coming up with things to post about (Hence my current exploration in to Blogging 101)!

When I was posting to Insaneroots, it was easy because I was pulling stories from my childhood (which seemed to be endless), but now I had to make a drastic switch in my mental preparedness in order to begin each new post.

I didn’t want this to just be another online journal, but rather an expression of the struggles many of us experience when making a drastic change in their life. Whether it be a career change, a long distance move or in my case both, these types of changes in one’s life call for great reevaluation of oneself. My goals for this year are to reconnect with myself, learn to love myself and most importantly learn to stand up for myself! My hope is that I may give others strength to do the same through the expression of my own personal journey.

If I have learned anything over the past few years it is that if you believe in yourself, the rest will follow!

Happy Writing!